All in an accountants trash bin….

In the bottom of a grey trash bin next to a big brown desk lies a watermelon jolly rancher wrapper, a lunch sack with half an eaten yogurt, a black plastic spoon lies just outside of the bag, along with an orange peel and a 100 grand candy wrapper. Beside that, lies a curly ribbon bow thing that goes on little presents. A couple old receipts lie at the bottom crunched up as if unimportant ( let’s hope there wasn’t anything important on them…)  Two used pink Cleenexes, a little black speck, who knows what that it is.. A piece of miscellaneous clear wrapper, wonder what that’s from. A red string, a year old newspaper, that reads 2010 world cup finalists, and a half burned candle.

A new type of communication

The other day I was talking with my mom about music, she doesn’t know a whole lot on the subject, no more than most people, little black dots on lined paper that make rhythms and is then called a song. Some may know a little more or less. But I was onto something with music theory and was trying to the best of my ability to relay the information to her, so she would understand. Then, something amazing happened. It wasn’t just inventive listening, although that’s what most people would call it, instead our minds really connected, she understood what I was saying even knowing next to nothing about music. It was because she was listening the way she was. It’s really quite difficult to explain but from that point we were both amazed and decided to explain this weird phenomenon of listening. It was hard to come up with the right sentence structure so I began to just write random words that described the energy we were feeling. Now that I have this big brainstorm of words, I’m going to try to make something of it: When someone is trying to communicate something not so easy to another, all they have to do is lock into one another. For one thing, the person receiving the information must have a desire to hear it, otherwise nothing will work, if they truly want to understand they try harder to understand; simple concept. And of course, the person explaining must be serious and enthusiastic so the listener doesn’t become bored. Two main guidelines.

K, so then our heads connected.  Her open imaginative intelligent  mind followed me, trusted me that my words would lead her to another place, where she would visualize what I was saying. We both focused on the thoughts, not only on the same page, but on the same line and everything, if you get my metaphor! We were mentally sharing the same ideas. At the time this seemed so huge, because we were both so involved, truth be told I’ve never connected with anyone like that before, I can’t wait to do it again, especially that now that I have experienced that, I know our minds are capable of so much more! When someone is so focused on what I’m saying, something amazing happens. Or maybe next time I will be the listener and someone else will be the speaker explaining something complex to me, and I will understand EXACTLY what they are trying to portray to me. I know this doesn’t sound that great but it really was! Alright so it was my mind and her mind took a trip up up to higher conscientiousness, the place of infinite possibilities. Our minds created a bridge to one another. Everything ever created, everyone’s beliefs and thoughts (shaped by society) was below us for a couple of moments, as long as it took to establish this subject. Under the bridge linking our minds together was a waterfall of all the things I was saying. Like all waterfalls, it had mist, the mist, I like to think, represented the ideas and concepts we absorb from mentally sharing these ideas. My mind took it even farther and pictured little fearies flying around in the mist and in the waterfall that represented little subthoughts we would encounter from just saying words, for instance, at one moment I said pause, as I tried to gather my thoughts so I could better explain and then a sub_though came into my mind that said need a twix, because I wrote the two lines for the pause symbol and it reminded me of the twix commercials and then I wrote as if replying, “yes.” That was a sub-thought. Then we remembered exactly what we were saying. Our minds were so competent and able to keep up with each other. Of course this feeling had to come to an end, I had all these words written on the paper and had to do something with them, so this is it. A new kind of communication!

40 things that happened in June

1. I graduated

2. I experienced family dynamics more seriously than ever

3. A friend I thought I’d lost told me he missed me and we should be friends again

4. I received lots of money for graduation

5. My character was tested at a social event

6. I had amazing…… (fill in the blank)

7. I realized that saving money is really important and if I wish to accomplish anything in life I must not spend erratically like before

8. I had my hair done and realized my hair IS capable of looking pretty!

9. Someone helped me realize my self worth and taught me we shouldn’t doubt or get down on ourselves.

10. Got to sleep in!

11. Ate at the Texas Roadhouse twice and it was delicious

12. Noticed how much I miss a couple people

13. Learned to play the clarinet

14. Took my dad to lunch at the texas roadhouse (for the third time in two weeks…)

15. I felt like a water balloon about to explode with creativity, but couldn’t express it, then decided I would have to poke a tiny hole in the balloon and let my creativity come out in a focused manner… It’s kind of working.

16. Learned how to save money- or more, realized if I don’t save money I will regret it, so I guess I’m being forced to save money.

17.  Registered for college classes

18. Got a temporary phone until my contract is up in August, which is great because I couldn’t text anyone!

19. Filled out the same application eight times

20. My respect for my college adviser has widened and deepened, as it does quite often, but I saw the struggles she has to go through, but she still seems composed, and amazing. Wow!

21. My relationship has been put through tons of hoops and hurtles this month, we live on!

22. Got a friend request on facebook from my best friend in third grade!

23. Hung with my friend Nic who I thought I had lost, it was a lot of fun.

24. Became extremely frustrated with the clarinet, as it is the most obnoxious and squeaky instrument I’ve ever heard or tried to play.

25. Had a great and very successful ETS meeting

26. Made a business phone call, and am now waiting for a return call from the manager….

27. Decided I’d learn all of Telemann’s Fantasies, currently working on number 10. Doing okay.

28. Found out I would have a French Horn next week! This is good.

29. Discovered a bump on my head, it won’t go away…!

30. Had lunch with perhaps my favorite person, and he inquired more into my past, which showed he cared, and he now knows more about me, also found we were both Scorpios!

31. Sent out abunch of important emails

32. Spent more time on the computer than I normally do

33. Went camping with my family and realized a lot, saw the reality of a couple situations.

34. Met some new, wonderful musicians who entertained us by the campfire, and who decided they would just give me a Cello!

35. Embraced the positivity all around me.

36. Stayed up and watched the sunrise with my Goommy, we had never done that, it was a lot of fun!

37. Became an Avon representative!

38. Wrote a really long letter to my friend

39. Went to Costco and was kind of disappointed because there was only one sample!! What is with that, that’s why I went!

40. Came home and worked things out with my love, actually snuggled,  slept really good last night too, thinking the talking helped, mind at ease sort of thing.

Overall, it’s been a great month. It’s things like these that really mean the most. Wonder what July has in store for me… 

The most annoying thing EVER and what I can do to stop it.

Okay so the biggest pet peeve I have, and I’m confidant to say that like 90% of you are victim of this, is pouring syrup improperly! I should be a professional syrup pourer! Any one who knows me knows I CAN’T STAND IT when people don’t know how to pour syrup. Seriously though, how hard is it? It amazes me to think how humans, who are so smart and capable of so much, can’t get something as easy as pouring syrup. I know it’s a sticky substance, more so than juice or water, and theres a tiny little hole that could offer some challenges, but come on! If we can go into space, paint beautiful works, play abunch of instruments and understand music, build robots, perform heart surgery on people, ect., THEN WHY CAN’T WE POUR SYRUP!?!? I watch people pour it and I see how careless every one is. It’s almost as if people enjoy being complete and utter slobs. Like when we were small children, some of us liked making a mess, but we’re adults now and it just seems like with syrup, everyone still has the same sloppy behavior and makes a big mess, like it’s fun to get syrup all over the cap. I just don’t understand. I’ll explain:

Step 1: You don’t need to tip the entire bottle upside down (give maybe if there’s only a little tiny bit left, that’s a whole different technique, not even going to talk about that right now). It will come out, secondly you don’t have to squeeze it like you’re trying to kill it. First, depending on how new the syrup is, I’m assuming about 3/4 full, just hold the bottle parallel with the surface, then if needed tip it just a little bit, like 3, 4 degrees. At this point the syrup still may not be coming out; it’s okay! IMPORTANT NOTICE: If the syrup is brand new! DO NOT hold it parallel, in that case, just tilt it about 10 to 15 degrees….

Step 2: Ever so slightly, squeeze it very gently, you will get a nice even flow of syrup. Brace yourself, you may have never poured syrup like this before! You can move your hand around while keeping the same amount of even pressure on the bottle. All around the plate, la de da, syrup syrup (see. you can still have fun with it)

Step 3: Here’s the tricky part, when you find you have enough and want to stop pouring, just stop squeezing. SO MANY people make the mistake of just radically jerking the bottle up thinking the syrup will stop, neatly, but does it ever? Nope. That is how my technique is different (better). So stop squeezing. If you’ve done everything right up until this point, the syrup should stop flowing out of the hole, but never fear, if it is still going for some reason, just stop squeezing and SLOWLY tilt the bottle up to it’s upright position (not jolting it out of fear!) Slow really is key in this instance. This prevents ANY syrup from getting on the entire cap, or bottle. My entire bottle is clean! Yes, I’m that good! You can be too! No sticky-ness that is disgusting to touch or worse yet, trying to fight opening the cap because it is  so solid on there that it acts as a glue. I don’t have that problem, and you no longer have to suffer either!

If you just try my technique I can’t get mad, even if you do get a little it of syrup on the cap or bottle, just clean it up and keep practicing. At least you’re making an attempt. You will eventually get it. Remember, don’t be nervous. When my friends are using my syrup, they know I’m watching them very intently, I think it makes them nervous, then they end up making a mistake and getting syrup on the bottle. Just trust yourself and have faith that you will do it correctly. If you try really hard NOT to make a mess, you won’t. Pass this on so we can make the world a better place. Teach your children the right way to pour syrup. Maybe eventually the whole world will pour syrup the right way. What a beautiful day that will be.

Greatness.

The soulfulness you embody and express from moment to moment is the single greatest measure of your success as a human being. -Rob Brezney

Converse and Glasses (words of the wise… where is this coming from?) Really long blog.

I like glasses on people, in my opinion, it makes them more interesting. Like they have a bold or captivating personality, which everyone does, but it shows more; like a really good cover of a book, you want to know more. I like converse too. Kind of the same effect, people that wear converse just have a common ground with others that wear converse, like they can relate to one another by the shoes on their feet! Lately I have been having some trouble with being able to maintain an interesting side of me, that will make people want to talk to me. How can I allure people, fascinate them, draw them? AM I just a boring person? I wear converse… maybe I should pull out the ol’ glasses? I’m probably the only one who really worries about this sort of thing, it’s just been difficult for me to stay fresh, to entertain people. Sigh, social skills! The development of each individuals morals, ethical principles and values  is very important and sometimes I feel like others are not even acknowledging this, but it is so important. It all starts with youth, a wonderful thing,  and continue to prosper throughout our lives. Some people blatantly ignore this and figure it is irrelevant when really it is the key factor in life? For me, this major time of my life, started in high school, when I really start to figure some things out…like how hard it was to become someone… now high school is almost at it’s end and I am proud to say I can walk away with a good introductory understanding of myself; have a fairly good amount of life lessons under my belt.

Countless amounts of time should be spent analyzing and carefully refining one’s character. Every day we have challenges to face that specifically test our character and true good will. Make sure to take note of them, for they will help us realize something within ourselves that really shouldn’t be ignored. I witness people being rude to others everyday, ironically enough, several instances today people have been rude, to me and others, it’s just saddening, the audacity some people have sometimes is just appalling! What gives them the right to treat others like that? We’re all human, all have the same color blood! Why even waste the time and energy it takes to be rude and create enemies? I just don’t understand. It makes me fearful for the future, how each generation could dramatically lose manners, even worse then today’s teenagers! Yikes! It’s hardly even imaginable! However, I force myself to be optimistic, people will evolve emotionally…. Just be nice and considerate to others, is that really that hard? Some people cannot do such a thing because, oh goodness, it’s going to hurt their ego! They have a reputation to fulfill for being “cool” that actually being nice, given the instance, pass up the chance. The ego is something very corruptible, but we all have one, it is learning to control it comes the challenge.  PLEASE!  Don’t be blinded by other people’s flattery, at least if it’s cruel, if it is well deserved then appreciate it but DON’T be blinded. I have recently been blessed with the presence of somebody I don’t especially care for and they just make me realize what I don’t like about them and what I would try not to be like, I’m not calling them “bad”, I surely don’t have that right! It’s just personal. He/She feels the need to act a certain way in order to please a certain crowd, this is really sad! He/She wouldn’t participate in something because his or her ego was in the way, preventing him/her from doing it. Well guess what, there was a reason we had to do that activity, as silly as it may have seemed, there was something to gain out of it, and he/she didn’t gain that, nope, instead they sat, the only one in the room not doing it, essentially making a complete imbecile out of themselves! Moral of the story? Be nice, and know that it’s okay to feel outside of your own comfort zone sometimes, in fact, I think it’s crucial, I used to hate it, but now, in some odd way, I like it. Strange! High School has definitely forced me to go outside of my comfort zone multiple times but I’m sure glad I did. I think it helps someone become more comfortable with them self. I don’t think he or she should go a mile out of their comfort zone, just 2-3 feet, that’s all, even if he, she never gets to the mile marker, it would have been better than staying in the box (comfort zone) the entire period of time? This is purely my opinion and advice to others.

Why, in our society, is it acceptable, let alone, encouraged, to be rude to other people? It’s completely beyond my comprehension. So called “cool” kids are persuaded by the rest of their peers to be mean, I see it all of the time. I don’t mean to stereotype because not all “cool” kids are like this, there are a lot that are considered cool but are not mean to other people, good for them, I’m acknowledging them right here by apologizing for my stereotypical attitude, giving credit to those who actually have a decent sense of  character. The only reason I am stereotyping is to get a point across, and I do see it all the time so I have evidence. Perhaps the hardest thing about blogging is trying not to stereotype, at least, in my instance anyway. At the end of the day it’s how we treat people and what good we have actually done for others that make us who we are. I’m quite happy with how I treat people, I’m generally nice to others (hey, we’re not all perfect, I can’t be nice all of the time). It makes me proud to say I’m not like others, but there is always room for improvement! I strive everyday to be nicer, but not in a fake way (don’t you just loath the people who are a fake nice? So annoying, be real!) If I were a rude person, I’d be really worried about the sake of my future and overall happiness. However, just because someone is mean doesn’t mean they can’t change. A lot of people are going to step foot into the real world and find it’s a lot different, once they no longer feel important socially, their eyes will be open. So change can certainly come to even the distressed. Maybe this is just my past experience with people being mean, so it’s spite talking, but that’s not 100%, I actually have a purpose in this blog. Even though it’s taken me a really long time to get there… Sincerity goes a long way with me and I’m trying to be the best person I possibly can, and I encourage everyone to do the same. We should take the time to gather an understanding of ourselves, to know ourselves completely should be number one priority! It is then, I find, we want to do goodness. Something beautiful lies within all of us (view earlier post: illustrious treasure and the hunt it takes to find it). We just have to locate and embrace it. So, good luck with your lifetime of character refinement. =) May we all succeed blissfully!!

 

Interesting and quite fitting

“Music, feelings of happiness, mythology, faces warn by time, certain twilight’s and certain places, they want to tell us something, or they told us something that we should not have missed, or they are about to tell us something; this imminence of a revelation that is not produced is, perhaps, the esthetic event” -Unknown